Monday, February 4, 2019

Monday, February 4,2019 1:30 pm


            Mike has been complaining of discomfort with his back and the breathing mask he has been wearing. The mask digs into his cheeks, his nose, and the back of his neck.  The nurse called the respiratory therapist.  He came in. We hoped he would adjust the mask, but instead, he decided to give him a break. He put those nose thingies on instead, but the mask is 10x stronger than the regular nose thingies.  He said he tried this before, but after a certain point, his oxygen level drops, and he had to go back on the high powered mask thing.
            The therapist said he special ordered a more comfortable version of this mask for Mike.  I’m telling you, he is getting the best care possible, as far as I can see.  Do they make mistakes? I’m sure. Last I looked, the medical staff here were all human beings. Can’t beat that limitation!
            The respiratory therapist got a little overly enthusiastic about sharing information with me.  He told me he was weak and had fluid in his lungs.  And then he says something about congestive heart failure. Huh???  He took it back in a few minutes, saying it was his kidney problems that were making matters more complicated. His heart is as healthy as any 78-year-old heart can be.
            He told me that he suctioned out his lungs! Yikes! Yes, he said, it is very uncomfortable to have that done.  I pulled out about 2 cups of liquid. Mike is not strong enough to cough it up himself.
            Once he had the nose breathing tubes in, he could talk more.  He said he was scared.  I asked him if he was afraid of dying. He said yes.  I told him that we were all worried about it last week, but now he was so much better they were thinking of moving him out of the ICU on to the floor. That made him feel somewhat better.
            He asked the therapist what he could do. Oh, dear. How do you tell a control freak, ”nothing .” I did some healing with him on recognizing his helplessness. There is nothing he can do.  Both he and his mother told the story of how she let him cry endlessly when he was a baby because the doctor told her to.  He was crying in his crib, and she was crying in the living room. (It came out later the doctor didn’t treat his kids that way.  It was advice from the pediatric books of the time.) Mike felt his whole childhood that he had to do everything on his own; he thought he couldn’t rely on his parents. Hmm! Time to learn that strategy doesn’t always work. To boot, he wasn’t alone in his crib.  His mom had not abandoned him.  The work we did relax him somewhat.
            I made it clear that we are in for a long haul. An old friend of mine contacted me through Facebook and told me that his brother had suffered from this. His brother emailed me with a pretty detailed description of his recovery.  It was long; it was hard; it was dangerous.  He was in and out of hospitals for five months, and he was 54 and didn’t have kidney problems.
            Assuming Mike will be in any state to do something for half an hour to an hour straight when he comes home, there are those of us who are already planning alternatives.  The Bible study group can meet at our house.  My niece Shivani says her partner can set up some long-distance tech stuff so he can counsel and teach courses right from our home too. 
            The big thing for Mike will be accepting limits, temporary or permanent.  Right now, he seems well enough that it’s a good time to start praying for that for him. If he comes out of this with gratitude for the experience, he will be a truly amazing person with so much more to offer.

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