I woke up with a start, wondering what was going on with my mother, realizing I hadn't seen her for a while. I wondered why I hadn't visited her in Great Neck the last time I was on the east coast for Thanksgiving. Slowly, it dawned on me she was dead; She died on October 16, 2001. I don't think of my father, uncle, or grandparents all who died when I was still a child. I suspect it has something to do with feeling no responsibility for taking care of them when I was a child.
While I was awake at 6:30, I rolled over and went back to sleep. I finally got up at 8:30. If I stay in bed too long, my body starts hurting. I am experiencing some mild intermittent pain in my left jaw and neck. I don't know if I have an inflammation or infection in my jaw, affecting my neck, or a stiff neck, affecting my jaw. I'm using a frankincense cure, for the time being, both rubbing it on my neck and holding it in my mouth.
I fed Elsa before we went on our walk. She had waited long enough. I was determined to do a long walk because the sun was up, and it would be hot. Because it was cool in the house, I had started out with a sweatshirt. I took that off before I left the driveway.
I stopped off to visit the Easter Island statues for their calming effect. The owner was up and about working on a landscaping project. He told me he was creating a Japanese garden. He said it was okay if I came in and visited his statues. I hope he feels that way once his garden is completed and the gate is closed. Maybe he'll give me the passcode.
It is always quiet in this neighborhood as well as ours. We don't have a lot of traffic. My street is two blocks long and has no direct access to a major roadway. When I sit on my lanai, all I hear are the sounds of the wind blowing through the trees, the birds, and the rain, when it is raining. I also frequently have the radio on. I would probably be better off if I silenced that radio, particularly NPR news. It's all about the virus. All conversations are about the virus. It's enough to make total social isolation sound attractive.
Dorothy and my friend Carol Z. called. Dorothy told me that her son-in-law suspects he has the virus. He is in his 30s and should be okay. He teleconferenced with a doctor, who told him his symptoms are suspicious but to just stay home unless he got worse.
Dorothy told me that 'we' should be okay because people with A-type blood are more vulnerable than people with O-type blood. Okay. I have A-type blood. This was a surprise to Dorothy. Hers is type O; she assumed everyone in the family had the same blood type.
While I haven't been feeling my best, I checked, and my symptoms have nothing to do with the virus. I have a sore spot on the inside of my mouth, just below one of my back molars. This has an effect on my jaw and my neck.
I ordered more brewer's yeast from the Wellness Forum in Columbus, OH. I had it mailed to Dorothy. They will only send products out with UPS. UPS to Hawaii is $50; UPS to New Jersey is $6. Then Dorothy mails it to me through USPS, $14; a $31 difference. Dorothy is my go-to person for shipping things to me that I can't get delivered to Hawaii at a reasonable rate.
My cousin Lauren texted me. She had her baby, and all is well. Yeah!
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Musings:
I've been reading a book about Jung's image of God. "The New God-Image: A Study of Jung's Key Letters Concerning the Evolution of the Western God-Image." So far, I'm not clear if he believes in God or calls our transpersonal 'quick thinking' minds God. He describes God as someone who had to create humans so he could become conscious of himself. Really? He talks about our need for myth to make sense of the human condition. Sounds to me like he conflates 'God' with human consciousness or is it unconsciousness. He sees the changes in the God-image as representing the development of human self-consciousness; we become increasingly aware of ourselves.
In a BBC interview, Jung made a statement in response to being asked if he believed in God responded, "I don't believe, I know." He regretted making the statement because it was twisted this way and that by the listening public. He didn't believe in any particular God-image. He thought God is a mystery, and all God-images are the creation of man's limited mind. None of them adequately encompass what must be God.
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