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Wednesday, January 31, 2024

 

Wednesday, January 31, 2024 

   

 I was exhausted and depressed. I spent most of the day sleeping. I skipped the kapuna mahjong gathering. It was too much for the day. I had driveway yoga in the morning, a  mammogram at eleven, tutoring at Ulu Wini at midday, and a session with Adolescent D later.

   When I arrived at the mammogram appointment, I asked the woman what extra precautions they take for my dense breast tissue, which I have because I never had kids. The other day, I just heard about the problems getting an accurate reading on dense breast tissue.

    She told me they used 3D imaging designed to deal with the issue. They had just got it in August. I thought, “God bless, Kaiser. Right on top of the issue. How lucky am I to have them as my health care provider.”  While it is true that both Mike and I thought we got the best health care we ever got right here in Hawaii through Kaiser, they were not the first in town to get a 3D imaging machine. My friend Jean said her provider has used 3D imaging for the last three years. Now, that was a disappointment.

   At Ulu Wini today, 6th grade Ch asked me for help. This is the girl Josephine asked me to work with in the beginning. She believed she had never been to school. Ch told me a different story. Either way, she had trouble reading. This was only the third time I worked with her. The first time, she was avoidant. I talked about her fear directly. She calmed down. She made progress in her reading after two sessions. Ipo and Josephine reported the success. Today, she was fully focused, downright demanding- hungry for more. I usually meet with a child for ten to twenty minutes. She pushed me for at least half an hour. I wanted to give up before she did.

 I worked with third-grade K on comprehension. She did very well. I don’t know why she had problems the other day. She must have been tired or just not in the mood and blew me off. First-grade K was still not using automatic recall. I spoke to his father and encouraged him to focus on the process of remembering rather than the list of words. He is supposed to use the words to practice how to memorize. The same was true with second-grade T.

   Today was Pantry Day. The adults came down to collect bags of free food. I loved sitting there. While the parents didn’t relate much to each other, I loved the sense of community. I understand there are tribal conflicts among the families who live in the Ulu Wini community.

Monday, January 29, 2024

  

Monday, January 29, 2024 

 

    I was awake by 3 am but got up at 4, following advice for good sleep habits: ‘Don’t stay in bed when you can’t sleep.’

   My stats on my blog have shot up again, over one hundred as high as two hundred fifty. The bulk of the hits come from China. There must be someone with a large class of students learning English.

    I tried to print something. The printer wouldn’t work; it was out of toner. I hadn’t printed 100 pages yet on my new printer. I suspected the cartridge was underloaded. I went to OfficeMax to see if they could help. The first question was, “Do you have the receipt?”  No, I did not. She said she couldn’t help me. Huh? Then she fessed up. Printer manufacturers will frequently underfill the cartridge. There was nothing I could do about that. I bought another. Henceforth, I will have all receipts sent by email.

    I went to the church to meet Sharmaine. She wasn’t there. I had to complete the security Virtus check I needed if I represented the church at Ulu Wini. Carolyn was at the front desk. She called her. She had forgotten about it; she would be right over. I had tried on my own but had no success. I couldn’t figure out how to work the site. With Sharmaine’s help, I had no problems. Done.

   Sharmaine spoke about her family, her six kids, and various grandkids. They are her life. She is involved with them daily. She had a full life that deeply satisfied her. One of her reasons for being involved with her grandkids was because “You can’t trust people these days.”

   I doubt there is much more danger these days than there once was. In the past, news items about kidnappings and rapes were out. Child abuse was just taken for granted. All children were vulnerable. It was tragic if something happened to them, but that was life.  

   Mama K’s crew and Adolescent D both canceled for the day. I almost missed my 5 pm appointment with a new client. Holy cow! I forgot about it. Am I losing my marbles along with many of my peers, or is this a result of lack of stimulation? I find myself forgetting more than I used to. I’m not as sharp. It might be age, but I noticed after the fall last June, resulting in eight hours of surgery, two weeks in the hospital, and another three weeks with limited movement and drugs at home. My brain has something to recover from.

Sunday, January 28, 2024

 Sunday, January 28, 2024


   I was wide awake by 3 am. I tried to go back to sleep but had no luck. I got up, did my morning gentle seated yoga routine, and wrote. I sat down to meditate when the alarm went off at five-thirty.
   I used to love my home. It's lost its shine since Mike died. That loss was a slow process, the same way the loss of my energetic connection to Mike was slow. It was our shared loving energy that made the house shine. I thought of how I could sustain that energy on my own. I sat down to meditate and thought to draw Christ's energy into my body. Something changed. That's all I'm willing to attest to. I do not know if it is Christ's energy or even if there is any reality to channeled energy. I just know what I experience. I don't assume knowledge of any other reality. The knowledge I have about channeling this energy made me feel better. When I went to get into the car with Judy and Paulette to go to church, Paulette commented on how pretty I looked. I suspect it was a response to the energy. Loving energy and healing energy are always beautiful in our eyes.
   When Damon called later, I told him what happened when we sold our house in Columbus, Ohio. We lived in a development. There were various designs; the houses weren't all exactly the same. Our house was one of many designs. We made some changes. We put on a new roof, siding, and windows, and I painted the front door red for Feng Shui benefits. Shortly before we moved, Mike had some work done on the front walk, replacing the cement with paving blocks. We weren't great gardeners but had a gorgeous tree in our front yard. The house was well cared for, but nothing spectacular. Two hundred people showed up for our open house. Of those two hundred, we had only two offers. One was rescinded before the evening ended when the person went home and consulted his partner. The other couple went through with the purchase. This house had been on the market for nearly two hundred days before we bought it. The realtor said she had only seen a turnout like that once before when she sold a Stickley home. Stickley designed homes with wood interiors. They are historic.
    When we lived there, there were several occasions when people would pass by and comment how much they loved our house. The loving energy that Mike and I shared made it look spectacular. I'm not claiming that we had the best marriage on the planet. I doubt anyone can make that claim. Every good marriage has its weak spots; sharing loving energy was one of our strengths. We both needed that quality in a partner.
   3rd grade M's father never contacted me to schedule our Sunday appointment. I guessed she was doing well enough, so she didn't need more tutoring. I have asked the parents what the teacher thinks about her performance. Still, it would have been nice if they let me know. The father is usually respectful and appreciative when dealing with me. I assume it just wasn't a priority, and I hope nothing happened to them. That latter is always a possibility.
  

Saturday, January 27, 2024

 Saturday, January 27, 2024


    It was a wonderfully peaceful day. I did garden work, continuing the weeding and trimming one of the shrubs with my handy four-inch chain saw. Love this gadget.

  I called to work with Mama K's crew. I had forgotten it was the twins' birthday. Mama K had it on speakerphone. I sang Mike's and my version of Happy Birthday to them. They giggled.

  Dash has a fantastic visual recall. He recalled all the letters in the word essential without effort. His problem is auditory recall: remembering the sound of the word. I reviewed the memorization procedure I developed.

   I was very excited by the realization that D's visual recall was that good. It is a strength we could use. I saw improvement in his word recognition when he said the letters before reading the word. I saw a significant improvement when we reviewed 'seeing' the letters. He applied that strategy when he read. I felt long ago that he didn't embed the words visually in his mind when he read. He left the letters on the page. Why would you expect it to be remembered if you don't give your mind the information it needs to trigger a memory? Later in the day, my excitement dimmed when I remembered he would not do this alone. He won't make any effort to practice it to make it habitual. I thought for a moment I could get him up to grade level, 10th grade.

   Last spring, he took an online reading test to evaluate his progress. He tested at the tenth-grade level. His teachers were ecstatic. He jumped five grade levels in a year. Only one problem: he had the computer read the text for him. He didn't even read along. D could do that because his comprehension is just fine. If he takes the test correctly, reading the material independently, he will be outed as a cheat.

   Today starts the sixth week I have been without my car and driving the loaner. Tyler told me they would have my car for me last week. Last week was over yesterday. I brought the car into the shop on December 22. It was scheduled for service on that day. I was supposed to get it back that afternoon. They called me to say the one mechanic they had to work on electric cars would be off-island for two weeks, taking a professional development course at Kia headquarters.

   When I didn't hear from them the week he was supposed to have returned, I called several times, leaving messages. I was never called back. I called the sales department and spoke to the woman who got me a loaner when the service manager refused me one. She said she would get back to me later that day. She didn't call then. I never heard from her.

   In week four, Tyler called to tell me they had fired the service manager. They had tried to repair my car, but it didn't work. They would have the car for me in the next week. Well, that's past now, and still no word. I have the loaner; I'm not inconvenienced. I want to trade in my car for the loaner. It's a used car with five thousand miles and a dent in the driver's side back door. Let's see what happens next week.




Friday, January 26, 2024

 Friday,  January 26, 2024  

 

  It was a Ulu Wini day. I met with third-grade S.  I continued seeing a dramatic difference. He knew the alphabet, which he hadn't known when I started working with him. I spoke to Ipo. She calmly said, "Oh, yes. He's reading now." What? He's actually reading!   I had met with S only three times. The first time, he didn't know the alphabet, even the song, no less read any words. The second time I met with him, I worked on phonemic awareness. I said a word and then sounded each phoneme, blending those phonemes. I was expecting just to model it. I didn't think he would participate. He was fascinated by what I did and made the sounds with me.

   Third-grade K is also showing a dramatic improvement. I asked her if her teacher said anything. "Yes. You're doing a good job." That's a standard response to any effort. I asked her if her mom saw a difference. When she said yes, I wondered what her mom said. "My eyes are popping."

Thursday, January 25, 2024

 Thursday, January 25, 2024 

 

   Steve arrived for instructions on my method for teaching phonics. It only takes two minutes to teach it. It's primarily examples after that. 

I didn't do that with him; I didn't do a very convincing job proving its worth. The teachers in India probably would be traditional and not open to a method involving the risk of making mistakes. With this method, the teacher has to figure out the phonemes in any word, whether regular or not. The English language is full of surprises. That's why students need to learn how to figure it out independently. There are too many variations to be taught in a regular classroom. There are too many variations to be taught in an Orton Gillingham program, covering at least some 99 variables.

   While working with Steve, I got a Facebook message from a distant cousin through marriage saying she would be in Kona for the day and would love to get together. 

She was on a cruise ship with her sister and their 96-year-old mother. I saw a Facebook post about traveling with her mother and sister. I assumed it was Leslie traveling with her daughters. I knew her mother, Marga, was very, very old. I couldn't imagine she was traveling to see sights. Boy, was I ever wrong!

   I offered to drive Leslie wherever they wanted to go. But no. They would be available at 11:45. I would only have enough time to say hello to her mom, but she and her sister would be available for lunch.

    I drove to town, parked in one of the commercial-free parking lots, and walked down to the pier. I had never been there before. This is no flimsy dock; it is a large cement platform servicing small boat docking for cruise ships and touring services.

    When they arrived, I could pick out Marga at a distance in her dyed-to-match pink pantsuit. Wonderful! She approached and kissed me, telling me she didn't have much time before she boarded a glass-bottomed boat moored at the dock. Marga, Leslie, and Leslie's best friend from middle school had just completed a tour of another part of the island- something I had never heard of. Leslie's sister, Debby, didn't go on that tour because she had a bad migraine. We waited on the dock for Debby to disembark one of the boat taxis ferrying people back and forth from the mothership. Leslie walked her mom to the glass bottom tour boat. T

     Leslie, Missy, her friend, and I went to find a restaurant instead of waiting for Debby to arrive at the dock after watching several taxis come in and no Debby. Leslie called her. She was waiting in line to board. She would be coming soon. Leslie, Missy Missy's husband, and I walked to Ali'I Street to find a restaurant. We selected the Fish Hopper. Leslie called Deb to let her know where we were, the green and orange building.

   We slid into a booth. When a server came, Leslie said she had a scheduled tour and had limited time. What could she order? Debby did join us. I would have recognized Leslie anywhere but not Debby. For some reason, I thought she was taller. I did see Leslie more over the years; she lived in Brooklyn while Debby lived on the West Coast.

    We had a lovely, light-hearted lunch. We didn't even talk about other family members. I didn't ask Leslie about her husband and children, and she didn't ask about my life here or my sister and her kids. I have seen photos of Leslie's two grown girls now and then on Facebook. They look like lovely young women.

   I met with Mama K's crew. Twin E reported that the letters had stopped moving in her head after we did a spin release. She read the words on the Fry list 101-150. She showed immediate improvement. I hope this continues.

  I lectured D on his efforts to avoid using the methods I teach for decoding the words. He argues they won't work. I tell him what I teach him to do may or may not work. What we do know is that the methods he uses do not work. You were reading at a first-grade level when we started working together when you were thirteen. Last spring, you tested at a fifth-grade level, with you only practicing reading when you were with me and me dragging you through the procedures. Isn't it worthwhile investing in my procedures? Can't you approach it as a scientific experiment? The kid drives me wild.

   Today, the second company came by to give me an estimate for excavating the Ficus trees. We were standing in the driveway. The fellow said he would email me an estimate when Darby called. I automatically put it on speakerphone because I don't like to hold the phone by my ear. Darby asked if I got the second estimate. She also said something about Dan's estimate of $1600. The guy standing in the driveway heard the other offer. He immediately said his price would be $5000. He didn't know how the other guy made a living at that price. He advised me to take his offer.

Wednesday, January 24, 2024

 Wednesday, January 24, 2024 

 

    I was up by 5, completed my online Gentle Seated yoga exercise following a YouTube video, and completed 4,000 steps for my morning walk. I followed all that with Yvette's driveway yoga at 7 am. Yvette only did 45 minutes instead of the full hour because I wanted to leave to make it to the old folks' mahjong meeting at church, which was supposed to start at 8 am. When I arrived, the door to the parish center was locked, and no one was there. I texted Paulette to let her know. I figured she had known, but no. As I headed back to the parking lot, there she was. She had no idea it had been canceled. Fr. Lio announced it at Sunday mass. Kathy, the main organizer, had been incapacitated because of knee surgery. She thought people would meet without her. Everyone thought Kathy supplied the mahjong sets. We found out there were sets in the parish office.

    Since I had free time, I took care of some chores. I went to the police station to get fingerprinted for my security check for the church for my work at Ulu Wini. I only got instructions: make an appointment and have a cashier's check for $25. I went back to town to go to the bank to deposit a check and get the cashier's check. The bank charged me $10 for it.

  Once I had the check, I called the church to get their OR number. "A what? We don't have an OR number." I told them I was informed I would need a security check. In every job I've had in education, I needed an FBI report. The church has its own system for checking people, Virtus. I was stuck with a $25 cashier's check made out to the police department I couldn't use. Nothing worse should happen. I went home for a nap.

   I saw third-grade S today, who didn't know the alphabet when I started with him and was considered a total non-reader. Wow! He must have had some knowledge already; otherwise, this is just magic. He had a log jam in his brain. Now that that's removed, he's learning swiftly. Anything could be responsible for that. I have thirty years of experience with my methods and many such experiences to suggest that it may have been what I did. I remember his rapt attention as I made the phonemic sounds of a word. I didn't just make phonemic sounds in isolation as they do in phonics training. I made them in the context of a word- any word.

   It was clear that second-grade T was terrified. Did her teacher yell at her? Yes. I assured her I wouldn't yell at her, but I can sympathize with the teacher. Several of the children are paralyzed by fear. That fear is an accusation. It tells the teacher or parent, in the case of one child, they're a terrible person who frightens children. I don't know anyone comfortable with that. That level of fear is annoying and triggers fear and anger in the 'accused.' T hugged me at the end of the session.

    I had D work on letter naming in the text. He knows the letters of the alphabet and can name them rapidly. The purpose of this exercise is to enhance rapid letter perception. He often misreads words because he ignores most of the letters. For the exercise,  I read letters in one sentence; he does in the second. We continue taking turns.

   He argues reading the letters doesn't help; working on the sight word list helped. He only believes in automatic recall but thinks it should happen automatically. He doesn't think he should have to work for it. He may not know that automatic recall is my goal for him, too. We disagree on how to achieve it. He thinks it just happens. He has to make an effort, study. I have also given him an explanation of the relationship between automatic recall and studying. He doesn't buy it. 

   While there are sight word lists. In the Fry list, words are listed in the order of their frequency of appearance in text. Many teachers believe the words are phonically irregular. Some are; most aren't. All the words are partially phonetically regular.

    More significantly, we read most words by sight; we do not consciously figure out the words. Competent readers have embedded most of the words they read in memory and retrieve them automatically. Memory isn't just of the whole word; memory includes memory for common letter sets, like -at, -it, -ane, and ine. They are elements of many words. What needs to be clarified is how much of the automatic processing includes rapid decoding in alphabetic languages in the unconscious mind. Relying on memory does not mean just memorizing an image.

   It was pouring at night. No walking, I didn't make my 10000 steps.

 

Tuesday, January 23, 2024

 Tuesday, January 23, 2024

   I had a terrible night’s sleep. I dealt with hateful messages from that lovely inner voice. 

The good news is that now that it’s surfaced again, I have a chance to heal it.

   I have friends whose husbands rail at them, saying terrible things. I can imagine their hateful inner voice confirming a realistic appraisal of the self. It’s too painful to bear. They use others as a scapegoat to drown out the self-accusatory voice.

   Today, Adolescent D couldn’t remember the word ‘they.’ That was a shock. Something goes on in his brain; it jumps the track. How do we deal with that

Monday, January 22, 2024

 Monday, January 22, 2024

     Steve said he was coming by to learn about my approach to reading at 9 am. He hadn't arrived by 10. I called him. He was so sorry. He had forgotten about it. He was in town. Could he reschedule?

    I called Jean to wish her a happy 82nd birthday. Jean and her husband chose to retire in a high-end retirement community. They love their apartment and the services, well, most of the services. It's like living in a gated community; their behavior is carefully monitored.

     Elsa peed on the lanai carpet again. Why is she doing this? I hadn't told her she had a Petco grooming appointment today. Did she figure it out on her own? Was that what was bothering her? Later in the day, I discovered the folding drying rack had been blown in front of the doggy dog. No wonder Elsa was reluctant to go out that way.

     After dropping Elsa off at Petco, I went to the post office to send my reply to the solar warranty company. Beth told me they would give 90% of everything I paid for the original equipment and installation, or I could continue with the company and have my existing solar panels replaced when they got their replacements. I chose the cashback option. I sent my reply by certified mail.

    I also stopped to pick up the vacuum cleaner. They told me there was nothing wrong with it. I anticipated a diagnostic fee, but no. There was no charge. Very nice.

    I connected with Mama K's crew, but only Twin E was available. The other two were already dead to the world. They come home from school exhausted every day. I'm burning out with the slow progress E is making. How do I fix this? There's figuring out and fixing her problem, and then there's fixing my mental state. With some kids, the slog is necessary.

   I had the same burned-out feeling with Adolescent D.  His decoding is better. Still, he won't remember seeing a word from two lines before and tries to decode it again. How do I  help this boy? I can't get his mom to take him to a neurologist. He might benefit. He may have a mild form of epilepsy that wipes his short-term memory clean. Sometimes, he reads smoothly, and it all flows- and then there are the times when he can't remember a word he's seen hundreds of times. If he read on his own, it would be thousands of times- but he doesn't.

  Dan stopped by to give me an estimate for removing the Ficus trees. Big roots are growing across the lawn. I dread to think what they are doing to the rock wall.

   I lost internet access at one point during the day. I felt a moment of panic when I couldn't access FreeCell. I guess I am addicted. I do use it to calm me down.

  I watched the Sister Boniface Mysteries series on BritBox. Eh. It's silly but vaguely enjoyable.

   I had a hamburger for dinner tonight. I set the plastic packaging on the floor for Elsa to enjoy. Okay, maybe I do have encroaching dementia. I didn't learn from my last experience doing something like that. She didn't just lick the meat juice; she ate some packing. I went to bed that night wondering what I had done to my beloved dog.


Saturday, January 20, 2024

 Saturday, January 20, 2024

      I was exhausted and went to bed at 8 last night. I woke up in the early morning hours, overwhelmed with anxiety. I put on the tapping app. It calmed me.

   After completing my Gentle Yoga exercise, I took a quick walk

in the freezing cold- well, freezing cold for Hawaii at this altitude. I had a leftover bagel with lox and cream cheese for breakfast. I was expecting Steve at 7:30 to load the green waste and take it to the transfer station.

  I didn’t hear him arrive. I got anxious, wondering if he would be late. I looked out the front door and saw his truck in the driveway. Yvette and Steve were loading the fallen palm fronds I laid on the side of the driveway. I said there’s more down in the lower yard. Yvette said she would have Casey take care of them. I chose to go with Steve to help him unload at the transfer station. He had to give me a push to help me get into the passenger seat.

   I used the time as we were driving to talk about my reading instruction success stories in prep for our Monday meeting. He seemed open. He visited several schools on the island to see what kind of work they were doing. 

  Steve stopped at Home Depot. I had some items to pick up myself. I looked for copper nails; Home Depot doesn’t carry big ones that will kill trees. Steve’s shopping took a while because the employee couldn’t find where it had been stored. I walked up and down in front of the store while waiting for him to get in my steps.

    Once at home, I took a nap. I napped most of the day. Mama K’s crew wasn’t available. She was on Ohau and couldn’t get hold of anyone at home to get them to connect. While the kids are generally cooperative and don’t misbehave while I work with them, they may not be crazy about having to meet with me.

    When I got home, I got two five-gallon buckets loaded with green waste and walked them down to Darby’s house. The buckets were surprisingly heavy and put some strain on my left shoulder, the one with the reverse shoulder replacement. I left them without saying anything. On a walk later in the day, I checked. Yes, one was gone. She found them.

  Darby returned the empty orange buckets carrying a brightly patterned umbrella. What a sight! I took a picture. We stood in the driveway talking. I proposed I walk her home and get in more steps. We’re delightfully playful together.

  Yvette wanted to walk earlier today because she had a dinner date with a girlfriend and her two children.

   I watched the end of McDonald and Dodd. It got better as it progressed. I found the main characters, in fact, all the characters, annoying. The writers toned down the absurd personalities in the later episodes. When I was through with McDonald and Dodd, I started watching Sister Boniface Mysteries. I wanted to watch Criminal Report on Apple but can’t get my password to work. Need to call Apple support to figure it out.



Friday, January 19, 2024

 Friday, January 19, 2024 

 

   I was exhausted at 8 pm. I tried to stay up but made the mistake of lying down. I fell asleep. The rest of the night was that twilight sleep. I was relaxed and in a light sleep. I started some stinking thinking. I didn't get up at 5. I had turned the alarm off. I hit the road for my morning walk at 7 am. This was very late for Elsa and me. 

I fed her before we left the house.

    I caught up on the wedding. I moved the fallen fronds from the back to the front of the house to reduce the work for Saturday when Steve planned to come with his truck to help me take it all to the transfer station.  

    I have been doing regular weeding. Darby has been my inspiration and support. I once said that she and Patrick were good gardeners. They mostly live off what they grow. Darby said they were less good gardeners than persistent ones. Wow! I can do that. She said they had to pull out half the plants they put in. It's trial and error before it's success.

     I have to do the weeding myself because I fired the gardener after he gave an unsatisfactory answer to why he planted five Ficus trees in a 100' x 20' space with a rock wall behind it, which grow into huge trees with a huge root system that takes out any cement in their path. "I didn't think of it." A Ficus tree grows to 60' with a trunk diameter of 4' to 6' and roots that will take out anything in its way. Planting them in that space is a disaster waiting to happen. The roots will take out not only the supporting rock wall but also the driveway behind it, along with the slab foundation of the shed. These trees are lethal to anything in their way. How can you not consider the consequences of your decision?

    I thought to ask Josephine, the Ulu Wini community center social service administrator, if this was a pattern among the Marshallese. The gardener is a Marshallese immigrant. Yes, indeed. They don't think about the consequences of their actions. I feel sad on so many counts. I feel sad for these poor people who had to leave their beloved homeland because of the cavalier use of their environment to test bombs, destroying their land. If they feel sad, they have to lose a social structure where thinking of consequences is unnecessary because every action is prescribed. Everyone knew what to do by the time they were six.  

   The Marshall Islands consist of 29 atolls and 5 islands for a total of 70.05 square miles. The atolls are occupied. Each island is occupied. The total population as of the 2021 census was 42,418. Each island is its own world. Options are limited. That can be good or bad; it's certainly relaxing. You never have to 'think;' all problems have been resolved. I know these people grieve their loss.

   These poor people have moved into an environment where many encounter more people in a single day than they might have in a lifetime on their island or atoll. The unexpected is the norm; thinking is a necessity. I feel bad for rejecting someone on a cultural basis, but I don't care for the consequences of his actions. I can't trust his judgment.

   I worked with Adolescent D before going to my Friday session at Ulu Wini. He wanted to continue working on an article on the active versus the passive voice for school. I told him to look for the presence of the verb to be before the active verb. He had no idea what the verb to be consisted of or what it meant to conjugate. I had to go through all that and then explain the passive and active voices. I chose some random sentences from the material I had on hand. Oh, boy, was that ever a mistake. 

I should have stuck with the article and their explanation. It would have been much clearer. As usual, the paradigmatic examples don't begin to illustrate the complexity of the language.  

  I was so confused I wrote to my grammatical resource, my sister, to ask for help understanding the sentences I had randomly selected. Dealing with my confusion was helpful. I have a better appreciation of the resistance of others to using my method for 

teaching phonics, which requires teachers to deal with all words, not just the carefully selected 'phonically regular ones. I ended the session with D, telling him I would investigate the issue with my sister and do more research.

    I left for Ulu Wini immediately after working with D. There were a few outstanding encounters. I worked with eight children in an hour and a half. Third-grade L got his report card. The teacher saw a remarkable difference. His reading problem cleared up. L told his teacher it was thanks to his tutor, Betty. What he didn't tell her was his problems were resolved after three fifteen to twenty-minute sessions- and some discussions with his mother on her efforts to inhibit his outgoing personality. L is bright as a whip and wonderfully exuberant and appropriately entitled as far as I'm concerned.  

   L's relationship with his mother reminds me of mine with my mother. She was beside herself with my outgoing personality. "Stop bothering people." "No one wants to talk to you." 

     She was raised in a world where children knew their place. They were not to have conversations with random adults. She had trouble talking to random adults. She lived in a constant state of terror about just about everything due to the traumas of her life. She was constantly suppressing or criticizing me. It was a nightmare. L's mother would criticize his behavior with me when I had no problem with it. I had to tell her repeatedly to let me deal with his behavior and not to interfere. I had enough confidence in my relationship with her to tell her to teach her son to look for tells when his behavior is not being well received instead of telling him not to explore connections in the first place.

    The teacher said there had been a huge change in his schoolwork. His reading problems have mysteriously cleared up, and a radical attitude change exists. He is making an effort to conform to the school's expectations. What made the difference? I explained that understanding what someone says is not the same as agreeing. He started answering reading comprehension questions from the author's point of view instead of his point of view.

   Two other students demonstrated remarkable differences. I worked with a total of eight students today. Two little girls stood out: a second grader and a third. Third-grade LA zoomed through 150 words on the Fry sight word list. What!! According to my notes from my last session with her, she had trouble remembering of, the second word on the sight word list. She had been decoding every word. All I did was show her how to recall words automatically. All those words were already encoded in her memory. I just showed her how to retrieve them. 

I released her from the severe restrictions of compulsory decoding.

   Those opposed to teaching phonics cite examples like this. 

Their objections are valid. Automatic processing must be taught to be used with all words once they are securely embedded in long-term memory.

   The second student to demonstrate a difference was second-grade T. 

She also had problems with automatic recall. Most of the students have problems with this. She struggled with the first 25 words on the Fry Sight Word list. What was remarkable about her was what she did to stimulate recall. 

  I teach students to 'see' the letters of word in their mind and then 'hear' it. I touch their forehead and say, "What are the letters?" Then, touch their temple on the left side and say, "What is the word?" As T struggled to recall the words, she touched her temple on the left side of her head- and the word came up. Wow! This works even better than I could have imagined.

   It was Darby's night for the walk. I asked her to bring over some oranges from her garden. A volunteer had brought oranges for the kids. They were eating them in front of me. I didn't take one because I couldn't eat and teach. But it stimulated a craving. Darby also brought back her bucket to pick up more green waste. She will be taking all my green waste except for the palm fronds, which are huge and reluctant to break down in a compost pile.

Thursday, January 18, 2023

 Thursday, January 18, 2023 

 

  I had my first private session with Doreen, a Gokhale instructor. 

She went on in detail, describing the objectives of the lesson. Given it was only 13 minutes at $240 an hour, I didn't want to waste time doing what I didn't need. She said she didn't stick to the time limit.

   As I worked, Doreen said, "Don't overthink it." I said, "Please, don't critique my thinking style." I thought I did pretty well. I got good pointers from her. I know therapists can have difficulty with me. Most start out fearing me. I'm bright, articulate, knowledgeable, and outspoken. Most of my psychotherapists couldn't stand working with me. My physical therapists all wind up loving me – so far.

   The OT who came to my home after my shoulder and elbow surgery told me while she first thought I would be hard to work with,  I wound up being her favorite client. I do well when people work with me; I'm a nightmare for anyone who thinks it's their job to work on me. These private sessions are nothing more than a private YouTube video presentation. At the session's end, Doreen commented positively about working together.

   I'm not a controlling person except in one regard: I need to work things out with people. Some people deal with differences with fatalism. 'It is what it is.' I don't. I want to work for the best solution for one and all. Mike saw that in me and appreciated it. From the start, he said he saw me as someone who would take care of herself and be concerned about him, too. He never changed his mind about that.

   I have a problem with my solar system. I had thirty-five panels installed in 2017. They wound up being a defective batch. Many broke down over the years one by one. They were all under warranty and were replaced for free by the company. It's been about a year since the last three broke down. I'd been waiting for replacement panels. Out of the thirty-five originals, approximately 10 have been replaced.

     I ran into Beth, the administrator at Hawaiian Solar, the company that installed those panels, at church last Sunday. She muttered something about the company only replacing the panels if they stopped producing completely. Did I get an email from them? I envisioned a panel producing 1% of what it was supposed to but not qualifying for replacement.   I called Beth on Monday to get a better idea about the terms. She said it was a good deal. They offer to pay 90% of what is spent, and I could spend that money any way I like, or I could stick with them, and they would honor the warranty as best they could.

    I wanted out. I was worn out waiting for the next panel to fail. Beth told me Hawaiian Solar no longer installed panels. I called other local solar companies to schedule a sales appointment to see my options. It sounded like a good deal for me to get new, updated panels instead of hanging with this company as panels fail one after another. I am concerned that some will go after the warranty expires.

  I showed Adolescent D  the memorizing procedure. Make the sounds for each letter or letter combination that makes a sound, say the word, and repeat at least three times. Recall the letters visually, name them, and say the word. Repeat three times. Both exercises require recall, creating new circuits in the brain. For the first time, he said he might do the exercise on his own if I sent him the list of words. Before, he said no to anything I suggested; he wouldn't do anything.

    When she picked me up for our evening walk, Darby came with a bucket in hand to collect green waste. She told me how precious green waste is. If she feels that way, I'll give her mine rather than take it to the transfer station. They collect green waste and make it into mulch. She said she would only take bucket-sized quantities. I could think of several reasons; her real reason never occurred to me. Anything bigger is too hard to work with. Okay, I'm game.

   I tried to make a video for Josephine showing my approach to cuing students on decoding. I'm reluctant to make these videos because I can't stand the way I look or sound. Damon tells me that everyone feels that way. No one can stand the way they sound. I'm also unclear. When I speak to someone directly, communicating my thoughts is easy. I made the first videos with an audience in mind. That helped me a lot.

    I did some housekeeping and weeding today. The sun was out all day, so I did a laundry and hung my clothes on the line. I finally vacuumed the lanai. It's not a big deal. I've been looking at the rug and complaining about the filth in my head. It feels good to get it done. Unfortunately, running the vacuum prompted Elsa to pee on the rug. Can't win it all.

Wednesday, January 17, 2024

 Wednesday, January 17, 2024  

 

    I slept in today, getting up at six rather than five. I headed out for my morning walk. It was shorter than usual because I wanted to be home in time for driveway yoga with Yvette. When Elsa and I got home, the gate was closed. Josh was approaching his car to leave for the day. I still had to get my car out of the driveway and onto the street. I asked Josh to open it and close it when he left. Before he could close it, he got a message from Yvette that yoga was canceled. Yvette was feeling ‘rough’ and needed more sleep. I did the Gentle Seated yoga on YouTube.

   I did my morning chores, Wordle, New York Times Mini, and Connections. I use hints when needed, particularly for Connections.

   I left at 8:30  for my 9 am appointment with the occupational therapist. When I arrived, they told me I had an 8:15 am appointment. I missed it. Damn. I was going to have to pay a penalty fee. But no, I wouldn’t. That rule doesn’t apply to long-term patients who make one mistake. That gave me plenty of time to do other chores in town. I considered going to Kia and dealing with the dented door. Now that  JJ, the service manager, and Alex, the booking agent, were gone, I had no one who had even seen the car before I took it.

   I decided not to make a big deal of it. I will hand in the loaner car when I pick up my car. I went about other chores. I had my friend’s cement angel (17 lbs.) in the car. It had been her daughter’s. She wanted it shipped to her house in Arizona. I stopped at UPS and then at USPS  to learn about shipping possibilities. UPS’s shipping fee would be $186 to ship for 40 lbs. Packing would be just as expensive: $116. On the other hand,  USPS would charge $50 for 16. 7 lbs.

   I went home, worked, and napped briefly before going to Ulu Wini. I spoke to one of the mothers. Her son insisted on answering reading comprehension questions with the answers he thought would be correct, not what the author had to say. For him, it’s a fierce battle to maintain his integrity.  

   Adults often use the tag expression, “ Do you understand?” Children don’t always understand what the expression means. When used by adults as above, it means, “Do you understand there will be consequences if you don’t do as I say?”  But the child can understand it to mean, “Do you understand (and agree) your room is a mess that needs to be cleaned?” if the kid cleans it, what is he agreeing with? 

   Josephine, the social services administrator at Ulu Wini, asked me to tell her what I was doing with the children. I thought she wanted to know what I did with each child. No, she wanted to know what methods I used to help them so she and the other workers could use them when working with the children.

  I asked Josephine about the Marshallese culture. Most of the children I work with come from those islands, as does the gardener I just fired. Do the people from the Marshall Islands neglect to think through the consequences of their actions. Yes.

   The Marshall Islands consist of 29 atolls and 5 islands with a population of 72,000. A small population in confined spaces. By the time someone is 6, they know everything there is to know. They don’t have to think about it. They can rely on tradition.

    It makes me so sad to think of their loss. Between 1946 and 1958, the United States government detonated 67 nuclear bombs in and around the Marshall Islands, vaporizing whole islands. They moved here to escape the deadly effects of the bombings. The USA contaminated their water, land, and air. So sad.

    I had a session with Adolescent D when I got home. He read the sight words through the 300-350 list. This is a vast improvement. But let’s remember Twin A in fourth grade is doing the same work. She is practicing it and may well do better than D shortly. D does nothing independently. He drives me nuts. However, he is applying the decoding strategies I taught him.

Tuesday, January 16, 2024

 Tuesday, January 16, 2024 

 

   I had an appointment with the dentist this morning to start the process of getting a new cap- I thought. In the past, the dentist removed the old cap and ground down the remaining tooth or just ground down the tooth if there wasn’t an old cap to remove. Next, he got an impression of my teeth to send to a facility that made the caps. I was in and out in an hour. Today was different.

   The dentist had me there for two hours. He made the new cap himself. I had to cancel an appointment to meet with Josephine, the administrator of Ulu Wini’s community center social support team. I went home afterward and slept for several hours.

   I finally got a call from someone at the Kia service center. Troy called. He apologized for not getting back to me sooner. He was over from the Kia center on the other side of the island to manage our Kona site. He had fired JJ, the service manager. Alex quit for a better job. They had tried to repair my car, but it didn’t work. He said he would have it ready for me next week. He would have a loaner car for me by tomorrow. I told him I had a loaner all along. He had been worried about me. He had only heard that JJ had refused me a loaner. He hadn’t heard that I had gone over his head, called someone in the sales department, and secured one.

    While I was eating dinner, someone came to my door. Elsa alerted me. A young woman was saying she was here to deliver the car. I told her I had spoken to Troy earlier in the day and didn’t need the car. She sounded confused. I asked her if she was from Kia. No, she was here to return a Turo rental. Ah, next door. Mei and Peter run a Turo business. I called Mei to tell her someone was at her front gate.

Wednesday, January 31, 2024

  Wednesday, January 31, 2024       I was exhausted and depressed. I spent most of the day sleeping. I skipped the kapuna mahjong gathering....