Saturday, February 2, 2019

Saturday, February 2, 2019, 7:30 pm


            Good news:  The results of the CT scan were favorable: no infection visible, some reduction in the fluids in his abdomen, but if anything slightly more liquids in his lungs.
            Mike was able to talk a little more.  He wants to know what is going on.  I told him he was very sick and in the ICU again.  I finally asked him if he was scared.  I told him to remember to put himself in the hands of God. I have never seen Mike use the rosary as a way of calming himself, but I decided to give it a go. WOW!  Shivani and I sat there together, reciting it. He fell asleep.  If I stopped, he'd become agitated. His blood pressure would shoot up.  Then we started the rosary again, he calmed down and dozed off.  I don't know if this will always be the case; I can only hope so. For now, the effect was dramatic. 
            His need to control is showing its face in some other situations. He's telling me to be quiet, hmm, more like shut up. This has shown up several times. Now in the past, he has often accused me of bibble-babble, which means I'm talking about something he's not interested in. I think it's safe to say I'm interested in more things than he is.  He has two reactions: Positive: I'm always interested in everything and interesting.  Negative: He's sick of my bibble-babble. 
     In this case, I think he wants me to stop asking questions and making suggestions to the staff.  Interesting: because he often told me, "If I'm in a hospital, don't leave my side." So while he is telling me to go, he is also telling me to stay.  Poor guy, he is totally lost. I'm exhausted from the effort and from the roller coaster ride.  However, there is another possibility. I asked him if he didn't want me talking to other people.  He nodded. It may be that he only wants me paying attention to him.  I must say, that would be out of character.  If all he can manage is telling me to shut up, I'll take it. We'll deal with this behavior once he feels better.  

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