Saturday, February 10, 2024

 Saturday, February 10, 2024

    I remembered to give Elsa her flea & tick protection with the heartworm medication today, on the 10th. I selected the 10th because Yvette's birthday falls on the 10th, and it helps me remember.- sometimes.

  It was a bad night; I was agitated. Let's see what's weighing on me: it's the seventh week my car is in the shop, my Surface Pro is crashing, I fired the gardener and can't find a replacement; I'm shelling out several thousand dollars to undo an error the gardener made because he didn't think, thirty-five of my solar panels need to be replaced, and I am suffering from loneliness. That last is the worst.

   I had a Gokhale session with Doreen. She's accommodated me in several ways. Instead of meeting with me twice a week, she's agreed to meet once. She said they usually schedule this private session two to three times a week. "Otherwise, the client loses momentum." Suppose a client can't maintain momentum for seven days. How can they keep going after these costly ($249 an hour)' private sessions" are over? Shouldn't the instructor be helping the client incorporate the discipline? That would help make the session private. As far as I can figure out, the only thing truly private about these sessions is that I get a private performance of a canned presentation. I would probably get some corrections if I were in a group class. In the group class, I would also benefit from the mistakes and corrections others receive.  

   Today's session was a little better. The instructor tried to help me get my back into the required position, and she didn't spend time reviewing the material from the Element Book or Esther's videos.     

   I delivered my first bucket of green waste to Darby. She considers all green waste golden. She sets it out in her garden as mulch and fertilizer. 

I walked down the street carrying a Home Depot 5-gallon bucket in each hand.

    Damon called. He was off to a political event, a fundraiser for Adam Shift. I shared my grief with him briefly. I wasn't interested in going on about it. I go on and on about problems when I am hoping for solutions. Those problems all have to do with things outside of me. We talked about Cylin's book. 

  I gave Cylin some feedback as I read the book, minor contradictions. When I talked with Damon, I spoke of broader concepts. I thought of the book as a romance wrapped in a mystery wrapped in a romance. The suspense kept me going. I wondered if the rock star boyfriend of the main character was still alive and how they would react to each other should they reconnect. What the outcome would be? I speculated the 'voice' they heard, which sounded like the lost rock star was his son. It was a letdown when the truth came out. The sexual energy dissipated. The budding romance with the man she was traveling bridged the lull. The new romance was mature instead of an impulsive attachment of two intense young people.

  Twin E is finally taking off. It has been a long time in coming. 

Both the girls still have words they get stuck on, and they still can't solve them on their own. They don't use the study skills I taught them.