Friday, January 8, 2021
Last night, I made some changes in the PowerPoint presentation based on Dorothy's observations and emailed them to her. When we spoke this morning, she hadn't looked at it.
The other day, Dorothy told me I had to practice making the presentation because my speech was halting and sometimes garbled. Today she told me that I often mispronounce words. I knew that. I have a historic auditory processing problem, which I have mostly overcome. I told her I have often felt I struggle with my tongue when I talk. It feels like it is too big for my mouth. I thought it might be because I learned English with a German accent as a child, which lingered in my muscles. Then it occurred that my dad looked like he didn't have his tongue under his control either. I called Dorothy to tell her. She directed me to look it up. What do you know? There is such a thing as macroglossia, having a tongue too large for your mouth. I do not believe I have this problem because of inflammation. My tongue has never felt swollen. If I do have it, it's an inherited condition. Oh, yay.
Dorothy spoke about our bilingual background. Dorothy loves to learn new languages; me, not so much. I want to because I know it's good for me, but it gives me no joy. I asked Dorothy if she would consider teaching me German. She said she would prefer to teach me Spanish. German is automatic for her. She doesn't understand why she does what she does. In Spanish, she has metaknowledge of the language. I thought it would be an opportunity for her to develop that type of awareness; it would be fun. Well, that's my idea of fun. I have learned so much about English from teaching the way I do. Every nugget of information is a source of delight.
I had a session with D. I tried to connect through Google Classroom but couldn't do it. We worked on Zoom again. Again, we held letter images on the brain's left and right sides. I wrote the lower-case letter a correctly on one side of a vertical line and on the other side backward. Following up on Dahaene's information, learning to dismiss letters and numbers from the brain's right side is a learned skill.
In our last session, we uncover-again- that D prefers the right side of his brain over his left. I visited this possibility over a year ago and revisited it ever once in a while since. D has become clearer on his preference for using the right side over the left. This is the first time I feel we might make some progress.
I used the release protocols with him, "Let go of anything bad about your love for the right side of your brain and keep anything good and anything you still need," and then, "Let go of anything bad about your hate for the right side of the brain and keep anything good about that hate or anything you still need." After we completed those two, I had him do the same releases for the left side of the brain. Very interesting.
His love for the right side of his brain was strong and clear. It felt pretty good. His hate for his love of the right side of the brain was interesting. There was a feeling that I associated with self-disgust for being out of control, being addicted. Again, all we did was release anything negative about all those feelings. I never assume anything is just good or just bad. If it is, it is not for me to determine that for another human being. I give them the tool for exploration. The other thing I do is suggest areas of exploration. However, if something doesn't feel good to the person, we don't go there. Because of this, I have not been able to help D. resolve this issue earlier. I'm still not convinced that this will bring us out of the woods.
When he did the releases on the left side of the brain, that was also very interesting. When he released anything bad about his hate for the left side of the brain, I could feel that he viewed the left side as ice-cold, frigid. It was the color of ice, white through to shades of a cold blue.
That was an interesting way to view the left side of the brain. I guess it is that way. It is home to our abstract thinking. Relying on it led the Germans to blindly follow objectives dictated by the government. The only criterion being, were they fulfilling the objectives efficiently? The right brain sees everything in a larger context.
However, you certainly don't want to rely exclusively on the right brain. You get lost in your own perceptions; you lose all objectivity. You need a balance.
I shared the image that helped me expand my skills. I knew I had a creative mind from an early age; however, I also knew that I couldn't bring anything to realization. It was like a woman who conceives easily but can never get a baby to term. I knew I had to learn to deal with the details of producing something. I did. As I improved those left-brain skills, I also learned this didn't diminish my right-brain skill. Quite to the contrary, they too expanded. They were supported and enhanced by my left-brain skills. As I extended my left-brain skills, represented by a line to the left of the center point, the line to the right could safely extend without fear of falling off the edge of the earth. It's the difference between the fool and the magician. Tricky, very tricky.
D had to go because he had to join his classroom. It's exciting times, but I'm not counting his left-brain skills before they hatch.
I finally called the solar companies to check on batteries to support my solar system should the electricity go down. Phew! It's expensive. A bit of sticker shock. But is there a better time to go for it? The market is crazy.
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