Saturday, May 20, 2023

 Saturday, May 20, 2023

Yay! The scale said 145.5 this morning. I got concerned when there was a several-pound weight loss over several days. I remember when Jean told me she had diabetes. She went to the doctor because she had lost something like thirty pounds in a short time. She had called me and asked about being thirsty all the time. I'm the family 'doctor.' Thank God John drove her to an AMA doctor. When the doctor was through examining her, he asked if someone had driven her there. If not, he had to call an ambulance to take her to the ER immediately. 

     I had not been suffering from an unusual thirst or need to pee. I know those symptoms. How could I have missed them with Jean? Thank God they caught it in time. She could have died. I would have missed her terribly.  

     I signed in for my nine am Zoom meeting with Mama K's crew. No response. I called several times. No response. I assumed they were out paddling again, but Mama K hadn't informed me. She tends not to do that. It doesn't make me happy. She should just let me know. She finally contacted me later in the day, apologizing. She proposed dropping the Saturday sessions for the rest of the summer because of the conflict with the paddling sessions.  

      I had a nice long talk with Scott tonight. He has been staying in my home for close to a year now. He is always nice to me when we encounter each other, but I only see him when he leaves, enters the house, or does his laundry. Otherwise, he stays in his room. I was sure that some of his concerns were because he wanted to stay out of my way and not impose on me.

      The problem is I'm not comfortable with that type of seclusion. Mostly, I need people who share space with me. In fact, it is what I miss most about Mike. We often did our own things in the shared space. I like living on one floor rather. I preferred that over Mike being on a different floor than I was. Isn't that one of the wonderful things about living with people – if you're comfortable with them? If they don't resent your presence or consider you an intrusion on their private world. Scott said he had been in other situations where he had to walk on eggshells. I can appreciate that. Shared space means negotiation. If you're living with someone you can't share preferences with, that's a huge problem. There are always bumps along the way. I'm not expecting anything spectacular. He's studying for a pilot's test so he can operate a large drone. Could he do that in the shared space occasionally?  

         I continued watching Firefly Lane. I love the series. I love the actors. I love the script. Its format reminds me of the one Shivani used in her book; it moves back and forth chronologically. In the series, there is a scene with the girls as teenagers, then one when they are young women before their professional and personal paths have taken shape, then one in 'current time,' and then a scene at some random moment that reveals more about their relationship, and occasionally a moment in the 'future' to make you wonder what happened to cause that moment. I loved the jumping around in Shivani's book, and I love it here. The moments are organized around a theme in their relationship rather than strict chronology.