Sunday, February 13, 2022

 Sunday, February 13, 2022

  Another good night's sleep. My foot felt fine when I woke up, and it bothered me after I walked. The ankle no longer hurt. It was only slightly swollen; there weren't as many wrinkles in the left ankle as in the right. After my walk, my whole leg started bothering me. It became clear that the remaining problem with my foot was coming from higher up, but from where? It could be that my hip was causing problems up and down the chain. It could also be my back, or even my neck, further up the spine. It was all scary, feeling numbness creeping down my leg. We'll see. The chiropractor warned me years ago that I could create problems for myself as I corrected my spine. My bones had worn down after a lifetime of bad posture. Correcting my alignment at this point may be counterproductive.

    On the other hand, my hanai sister Jean just had back surgery for her spinal curvature. The doctor didn't call it that, but her posture was as bad if not worse than mine. While I may be in trouble, there's no for-sure route to avoiding it.

    When I woke during the night and needed a few minutes to fall asleep, I did a healing on an eighteen-year-old who is the granddaughter of a friend of a friend. When my friend told me the story, I was called to do healing on her. I don't feel that way with everyone.  

   I applied a method Shelly taught me that calmed me. I used healing at a distance. I used EFT tapping as taught by Pat Carrington with the following phrases:

1.         I know your fear; 2. My way is your way; 3. Know the love, know the light; and finally, 4) Join me and be.   

Shelly used it on me, and I used it on myself. It's supposed to be mother nature speaking. My policy is if it doesn't feel wrong, I'm willing to try it. It did calm me. I didn't know why, but I didn't have to. I'm just grateful to have something that breaks through my terror. 

    When I worked on this girl, I had this clear image of something in her brain that didn't belong there. I understand she has been difficult all her life. She may have had a physical cause for her problems since birth. I told my friend to see if she could get an MRI. I don't take my physic visions literally. I have no idea if they are true or not. But my statistics are good enough to tell someone it's worth a try. Of course, I only spoke to my friend, not her friend, the girl's grandmother.

   Later in the day, I did more work on the girl. My friend told me the girl was furious, blaming everyone for her emotional instability. I have little tolerance for people like that myself. However, with this girl, I got a new insight. She was thrashing around desperately, trying to get something that helped her. In her case, she blamed others because she had no concept of another solution. There may not be one. However, I also got that she didn't distinguish between cause and effect. It's like a person who gets hit by a car and wants revenge on the person driving rather than medical attention. In this poor girl's case, they were trying everything, but the medical intervention wasn't working. So sad. 

    Throughout the day, I did repeated healing meditations for the girl. I shared my insight on her mental state with Judy. She said there were experts on the case. For me, everyone's input is valuable. I wasn't saying what I had was right, but it was worth considering. You never know where the good idea will come from. No one in her family may be open to my suggestions. Lord knows, Mike wasn't open to my suggestions. He always needed someone who was certified in an area of expertise. He didn't value the insight of the uninitiated as I do. 

    Today, I noticed a drop in my blog readership. There were only 81 visits as of early this morning. I can easily imagine readership dropping off. It wouldn't go to zero because there are small numbers of readers coming in consistently from China, Russia, Japan, Ireland, and Canada. The large numbers were a result of class assignments. I assume English teachers in foreign countries require the students to read it. If these teachers have no classes, no one will read my blog. 

  Later in the day, my foot and leg started throbbing. It was scary. I thought the problem was coming from my back. Since I had missed my chiropractic adjustment, I was on my own. I chose to try the MELT method. I was reluctant because it involved getting down on the floor. I used to be the sort who loved to move. Now, I think twice before getting up from a chair or getting down on the floor. That said, my body is responding faster these days than it had in the past.

   I worked on the floor with the MELT roller, doing the exercises for my head and neck, upper back, and lower back. I felt loads better. That did suggest the problem was more my back than my hip. I fear getting a hip replacement and being either no better or worse.

    I hadn't spoken to Jean, my hanai sister, in days. She is in a rehab facility in the retirement village where she and her husband live. She is recovering from back surgery and does not want to speak to anyone while still in pain. I talked to her husband, John, to get updates. I enjoy conversing with him too. 

  I worked on the Phase III video. I had an idea of presenting the method before explaining it. This phase's implications are vast; it was not a good place to start. Most people don't need to know.